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Forget the rubbish

August 31, 2010

From the depths of despair, O Lord, I call for your help. Hear my cry, O Lord. Pay attention to my prayer. Lord, if you kept a record of our sins,
 who, O Lord, could ever survive?
 But you offer forgiveness,
 that we might learn to fear you. I am counting on the Lord;
 yes, I am counting on him.
  I have put my hope in his word.
  I long for the Lord
 more than sentries long for the dawn,
 yes, more than sentries long for the dawn. O Israel, hope in the Lord;
 for with the Lord there is unfailing love.
  His redemption overflows.
 He himself will redeem Israel
 from every kind of sin.  Psalm 130

A year ago I felt called by God to start this blog and share my journey deeper into God’s Word.  And that includes the joys and discoveries as well as dealing with those parts of me that I am not happy with.  I don’t write this blog for who will read it, though I am aware that people do, but I write it as a record of what is going on in my faith walk today.  And sometimes that is raw and painful.  But I don’t hide from that as that is my journey.

And right now I am very aware of my desperate need for forgiveness.  Without forgiveness, without the death of Jesus on the cross and Him raising to new life I am not sure how I would cope.  I am serious, the ability for me to receive forgiveness is incredibly important to me right now.  And the beauty of forgiveness is that God forgets.  They are completely washed away and I am made new again!  Lord, if you kept a record of our sins,
 who, O Lord, could ever survive?

So God forgets then surely I can forget?

Why then do I continue to beat myself up over sins of the past?  Forgiveness in the greek literally means to send away, to dismiss, so it is clear that when we are forgiven our sins in the eyes of God are dismissed and sent away.    My sin is like some rubbish, when I throw it in the bin it is gone, my house is clean again. Well in the same way I need to view my own sin as something that I have given to God never to return.  I am free of that rubbish for good!  The key challenge is that I need to realise that and work towards making sure that sin doesn’t return.  In the eyes of God that rubbish is gone!!

And where is my hope?  I am counting on the Lord;
 yes, I am counting on him.
  I have put my hope in his word.
  I long for the Lord
 more than sentries long for the dawn,
 yes, more than sentries long for the dawn. O Israel, hope in the Lord;
 for with the Lord there is unfailing love.
  His redemption overflows.
 He himself will redeem Israel
 from every kind of sin.

How are you with sin?  Able to let go or do you also need to learn like me to forget the rubbish and move forward.  Be great to read your comment below and if you are reading this on email, you can head to the blog by clicking here: BLOG to leave your comment.

Praise God!!


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  1. Richard Elmore permalink

    what if it’s all rubbish?

    • Teresa permalink

      What if it’s not all rubbish????

    • deb permalink

      if it’s rubbish and we Christians are all wrong…we go to the grave, end of story right???
      if it’s not rubbish and we Christians are right, those of us who believe and are forgiven of our sins are promised eternal life in Heaven with God. Simple we only need to believe, our sins were sacrificed for by Christ at the cross. Those who don’t believe, spend eternity in hell.

      So if it’s all rubbish nothing
      if its not , eternity somewhere beautiful or NOT! Eternity is a very VERY LONG TIME.


      • I know for a fact that Christianity is not rubbish, because I have had to many experiences with God and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is real. And He want’s to become real to everbody. St. John 3:16 For God so loved the World, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. Psalms 14:1-5…1 Thessalonians 5:8…1 John 2:8…Abraham Lincoln said that “God is the silent partner in all great enterprises.” John 14:6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. Jesus and the Father are one. St. John 20:11-17…After Jesus died he had to go to heaven and take his place on the Throne before he could send us another comforter, which I believe is God the Father, God the Son and with our spirit becoming One makes up the Holy Trinity, but I’m not going to argue over doctoral issues that don’tmatter.

    • dana permalink

      i have beat myself up over a year about my sins, and it has been very hard now that i see your website and have read psalm 130, we have a awesome GOD. i still struggle, and i know that i have a God who loves me. i still have a lot of issues, and i need a lot of prayers. God Bless you

      • the LORD has forgiven my sin and He has forgiven your sins also His forgiveness is ever present in time of need you, just have to ask, We have a very Good GOD who wants to gorgive us when we call on him, we just have to ask with our hearts and youll be forgiven! and from me to you! try hard not to do it agian! LOVE in Christ!

    • Nancy permalink

      I would rather live as if there is a God and die to find out there is not, than to live thinking there is no God and die to find out that there is.

  2. The key to letting it go is to actually take it out and let the garbage man take it away. Instead, we take it out, then take it back and wallow in it, take it out again and take it back. It is a vicious cycle and until we can learn to really KNOW that when we give it to God, He takes it away for good and we don’t have to allow the evil one tempt us with guilt and doubt over something that has already been washed white as snow and is gone. What freedom we will have when we figure that out. Until then, we are all gonna continue to stink.

  3. Andrea permalink

    I tend to pick the garbage back up after leaving it at His feet, I guess. The “garbage” for me has been more of what others have done in my life and my fears because of what has been done. I am very thankful that God has blessed me with my sons because that has restored my faith in humanity. I know this sounds odd but I find it easier at times to have faith in God than I do in “humanity.” Holding my newborn sons and watching them grow, I know that’s how all those men who are abusive start out too. They all had someone who loved them and wanted what’s best for them, even if it was only God. He has a wonderful plan for all of us. He sees the whole picture and hurts when others hurt us but because he wants relationship with us, he has given us all the gift of our own will. It’s not a free gift, this “free will.” There was a death and resurrection! I thought of how Jesus was once a baby too when I was holding my sons in my arms, and I cried thinking of how much He has to love us to allow Himself to be helpless in Mary’s arms…And seem to be helpless on the cross but praise God, he wasn’t helpless. He willingly went for us all, even for the child molesters and wife beaters out there.

    • Kate Schellack permalink

      Amen to this 🙂 Thank you for sharing your thoughts, they encouraged me today.

    • Haley Simmons permalink

      I love love love this! (:

  4. christine permalink

    sometimes have trouble feeling forgiven… when so many are more than happy to bring up the wrongs that one has done in the past. what is a person to do? How do you overcome and put away unforgiveness for oneself. I been told to Repeat ” Jesus, Paid for that at the Cross”.. Even now I have a hard time forgiving myself for the mistakes I made today. But Christ, paid for those mistakes did he not?

    • Andrea permalink

      Unforgiveness for myself has been the biggest hurdle for me since my divorce. I had a hard time forgiving myself for marrying my ex in the first place and then for staying so long. He was hitting me before the marriage and the abuse didn’t stop. As a little girl I was molested for years and then willing married my abusive ex. His physical abuse stopped but he never stopped, altogether, being abusive. He didn’t know how to deal with anger or any bad feelings and acted out like a two-year old. Only he was an adult, big, six foot one man and he was always verbally abusive. Like I said he stopped the hitting and he did get better because his episodes became infrequent. But being newly divorced with four kids, one in utero, was horrible. It’s been a long road but I have forgiven myself by faith. It’s a decision to forgive. Your feelings will eventually catch up to your decision if you will stay in the Word, and pray about it. I have asked God, I don’t know how many times, to help me to feel the forgiveness. There are days when I have a hard time feeling that forgiveness toward myself especially when my kids are having a hard time. I think about how they deserve a dad who shows them that he loves them and doesn’t just say it on the phone or in a b-day card, you know? It’s heart breaking to see your kids hurting and know you had anything to do with it. If I had only not married him…If I could’ve had these same kids with a man that God would provide, you know? If only…But I don’t regret all the past because I know without all my mistakes, I wouldn’t have the strength and mercy I have now for myself and others. And, don’t forget when you think about how miserable and broken you are think about how God sees you in and out, even better than we see our own kids and He has to hurt for you. He didn’t die on the cross in vain. Accept His forgiveness and decide now to forgive yourself and keep praying and stay in the Word, and the whole time you are doing this you need to be helping someone else. Help anyone less fortunate and witness to them; give them your story and you may get a hug from them in Heaven. It will uplift your spirit to see how Jesus is working through you in some way to help someone; it will feed your faith. Blessings, Andrea

      • great word Andrea!

      • Dana permalink

        as usual GOD has great timing…I’ve been condemning myself for upsetting my son before he went to school this morning, seems I couldn’t say anything right. The tears and guilt come from a deep well of past sins, terrible wrongs made to me and by me. After ten yrs. of being clean and sober, being born again in Christ and drawing closer to our LORD, I am still haunted by the past. I know to give it to GOD… I have , over & over, I ask GOD to take it away…I know HE has forgiven me… I want to forgive myself. I don’t want my loved ones to suffer because of my guilt that weighs me down, that keeps me from fully enjoying the many blessings in my life. Can anyone relate to this? Any advice?

      • PEGGY permalink


      • Lisa permalink

        Giving forgiveness dose not mean you condone the sin, you just give it to God and He deals with the consequences. This has taken me a long time to come to grips with as I too Andrea was in a very abusive relationship which left me with many scars both physically and mentally . Forgiving my ex partner for what he did to me and my son has been a long process, but I did not need to tell him I had forgiven him, I gave it to God to deal with and freed myself from the bitterness that was in my heart.
        I still however lament the loss of the relationship for my sons sake and the cost of my son not having his father, especially close to fathers day etc. But I would rather him have no father in his life than a very bad role model for him to aspire too. I just set his eyes on his Father in heaven to aspire to be more like. Both God knows the plans for my son he will be a mighty man of God, and God will use this situation that my son and I have been through for His glory. Andrea your children too will grow and be mighty children of God and He will use your situation and testimony for His Glory!

        God is the master fixer! He not only gives us fresh mercies everyday, but he fixes all the cracks that form from the world! Thank you Jesus for all you have done and do in my life!!

      • Katherine permalink

        OMG Andrea, reading your story I could have just erased your name and put mine. except, I had a judge that decided after suspected molestation of my daughters and countless testamony that he should not be with the kids……he decided that we would have joint custody but they woud live with him… now i watch them go back into the hell we lived in, only now without me there to protect them, he still stalks me, he has turned on daughter against me she has not talked to me in two and a half years….the only way i have survived is to know that these are things that God knows they have to go thru for something in their lives he has for them, to make them stronger…while there are still days I feel like death just walking around…i smile and go on, it has talken a huge toll on my health, God Bless you, I remember looking down at my unborn child inside me and apologizing for bringing them into all of this….I truely live each day in faith, it is all i have…at the moment i am also homeless….i only have God to look to ….nothing else! I Love my Kids, I feel I have let them down, there is nothing in my life that i have ever failed at that I feel so deeply than this.
        Kepp us in your prayers and I will keep you in mine! in him KH

      • JULIUS FABE permalink


  5. Dear Mark, Of all earthly music, that which reaches farthest into heaven is the beating of a truly loving heart. ( Henry Ward Beecher ) You accepted God’s Righteousness when you accepted His Son as your Savior,so quit beating yourself up with negative emotional Mumbo-Jumbo. 1 Peter 1:22,23 Seeing ye have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit unto unfeigned love of the brethren, see that ye love one another with a pure heart fervently:23 Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible, by the word of God, which liveth and abideth for ever. Walk in newness of life Mark because with His Son came His Righteousness also and the POWER to over come sin, and that’s wonder working power too. Sincerely Yours Danny T. Vick

  6. Thanks for the reminder that as we confess our sin, God forgets it. That is like water to my soul to apply that to the sins of my recent past.

  7. Thanks for the encouragement. Its easy to beat ourselves up. I thank the Lord for everything He did to forgive us for our sins. :]

  8. Lee permalink

    Morning Mark,

    I can put myself in your shoes right now. I have asked God for forgiveness and I have put my past behind me to move forward, but I do sometimes think that I am not worthy of his forgiveness because my sins are so great, no man could forgive like God, He is amazing. I feel like a new person knowing what I do now!
    I am loved and forgiven by my Lord, and a new chapter of my life is starting, it is so exciting and yet quite strange to feel like a reborn, you are stil you, just a new you! I praise God for his mercy and unconditional love. I praise God for He as Amazing.

  9. Kirby permalink

    Hi Mark,

    I just wanted to let you know how amazed i am this morning. Just at the moment life is being ridiculously difficult for me…and then I see your email, and it’s just perfect. Exactly what I needed to read. Exactly the message i need to get into my heart and mind today. Thank you for your ministry…Thanks for not worrying about people but just going ahead and writing anyways and doing God’s will and for being a great example to me.


  10. Kate Schellack permalink

    I definitely would say I’m struggling there. A lot of it is due to my OCD; for example, when I ask for forgiveness for something, I feel like I have to ask over and over and over again until it feels “right” and then I am forgiven. Even then though, I don’t forget. I dwell on it. Or, as of late, this has been getting to me: I feel unable to properly confess my sins. I know what I’ve done wrong, but it’s like I can’t…confess it in words. I can see it in my head, but I don’t know how to say it, and then I feel like I’ve not been forgiven when I ask because I don’t confess. Or, I become afraid of confessing, for fear I’ll have to deal with that sin, or that I’ll do it again.

    Sigh. It’s really wearing me down, that’s for sure. But thank you for this! This gives me hope.

    • Hi Kate! Remember, as believers we do not go by feelings. Ask the Holy Spirit to reveal this to you thru the Word, or even thru a godly Christian counselor. The devil tries to confuse us, trip us up, in the feelings arena. Go by faith, not by feelings. You will have victory over this. It’s Gods promise:)

  11. Leela Mary Koshy permalink

    I also believe that God has forgiven me completely.The power of those sins cannot weigh me down any more.( Isa. 43:25,Isa. 44:22) But I feel sad when I break my vow to God and be provoked to lose my temper. My realization that being provoked to anger is no excuse, I blame my husband,who is an extremely GOD-CONSCIOUS PERSON, for dragging me to sin. Both my getting angry and blaming him disturb me. I have still not have victory over this habbit. This is my present problem. Your thoughts are vert supportive. God bless

  12. It’s human nature to relive the past, but as redeemed children of God, we have the Holy Spirit that will lead us away from that. The world no longer has a strong hold on us, but the key is every day, or whenever the devil tries to bring up old dirt, to just turn away and realize, we have total victory in Christ. We made a decision to walk away and never return to our old self. So when the devil or someone tries to remind us just how bad we were, or someone who wronged us, smile, because you now have total victory over that battle, and any others. The Lord fights the battles for those who put their trust in Him:)

    • PEGGY permalink

      WONDERFUL!!! You are right on the mark Larry!!! Thanks for the great in sight!!…and by the way it works 🙂

  13. Tiasha Pickett permalink

    I am doing better at letting go as before my past used to haunt me. I let people walk all over me and I was pretty weak and didn’t stand up for myself and so it lead to decisions I made that I really didn’t want to make, however through the Word of God and prayer this part of me is dying. A new me is coming about. I will write a blog about how the Lord is transforming me into the “gentle warrior”. God Bless brother Mark.

  14. EdieJane permalink

    Forgiveness is very hard at times with those who continue with the same ‘hits’ toward my loved ones or myself. However, everyone has weaknesses, including myself; sin against others. Yes, I do have remorse and ask forgiveness from them so shouldn’t I also forgive. Releasing grudges, and praying for God’s help to assist instead, lifts an enormous weight from my spirit, heart, and mind, which allows me to get on with my life with peace and joy. I’d rather this than carry a burden, which causes stress; or have my focus taken away from what God has in store; or the increased possibility of an illness. The latter is NOT the way to go, sisters and brothers. God bless you today in searching your heart for any unforgveness. Our Father will ‘dig deep’ for you if you simply ask.

  15. Jane S. Drew permalink

    This is such an appropriate message for me. I have a hard time forgiving myself for my sins in the past. This past weekend was excruciating for me. I always remember the day my kids were driven away by my parents to be placed into foster care and were eventually adopted by two different couples. I strive to forgive myself and sometimes actually do, but when August 28 rolls around, I can’t forget or forgive, although God already has 14 years ago. I’ve made it through the weekend in one piece physically, although there were questions about that at one point. Emotionally. I’m still trying to heal. Thanks for such a timely message.

  16. Cheryl permalink

    Dear Mark, Your message comes to me at the perfect time. I have always had difficulty forgiving myself – growing up as an adopted child my family told me I was too sensitive or too something else – point is I wasn’t accepted for just me being me… I was just different than them. In summary, I grew up feeling I was “wrong”. Saying I’m sorry a lot was typical. I had poor self esteem and self worth. I came to the Lord and learned that he died so that all our sins would be forgiven and we would have everlasting life in his kingdom. I loved the fact that God loves me, (loves all of us) exactly as I (we are) am, how I am (we are), where I am (we are). He can do his work in any condition.

    There is presently rubbish that is cluttering my life and the lives of those I love around me, and I pray that through the healing love of Jesus this rubbish will be removed allowing forgiveness and healing to take place in Jesus’ name. The rubbish is gossip initiating by some members of my boyfriend’s family against myself concerning illnesses I’ve been dealing with. I love them all and have been very hurt my this. I want all this to go away – they are not going to say they are sorry and that hurts as well. Please pray for all of us – I believe through God all things are possible!

  17. quila permalink

    but itsssss sooo hard when u do somethin u know ur not supposed to do and u ask God to forgive u and u have these thoughts like He is probabli loookin at me like im crazyy

  18. Thomas permalink

    I am having a hard time leaving the rubbish behind and feeling worthy of what Jesus did on the cross for me.

  19. Marsha permalink

    I, too, have this same problem you have, Mark. I think all Christians do and the reason is because even though God forgives us, Satan enjoys reminding us of our shortcomings and failures. I am battling this by stopping the minute I find myself dwelling on the past and command Satan to leave my thoughts in the name of Jesus Christ and it works. Then, I try and dwell on God’s goodness by quoting scripture in my mind or singing a hymn or praise song. Even just stopping and praising God for His awesomeness works. The thing is, to realize that Satan is trying to bring you grief and rejecting his attempts is what will protect you from the bad feelings that come with bad memories.

  20. Steven permalink

    I’m with Thomas, it seams no matter what I do I keep digging the rubbish out of the trash and throwing it around my house. what can I do to make myself just leave it there?

    • Lisa Moore permalink

      Love covers a multitude of sins, Steven… Love… You should love yourself more. Don’t listen to the enemy’s lies. We have the gift of salvation by faith; it is all in faith… The enemy wants you to believe in those lies; he is a liar! He knows our weaknesses and he preys on them. Believe God; believe Jesus… You are loved, you are one of the precious pearls the Merchant is looking for. He sold all he had to buy you… You are loved! Now start believing that and love yourself! God Bless, Steven 🙂

      • Lisa Moore permalink

        And forgive yourself! ❤

    • Edie permalink

      Remember you can’t be forgiven until you forgive yourself. The bible states we should not dwell. Once we place it in his hands leave it there and if we don’t then we are allowing Satan to live with in us. And if it is being brought up through others then we just have to walk away

  21. Tony permalink

    Thank you, Mark! for such insightful and heartfelt words. I have struggled with a past sin for so long and this has helped me see my struggle for what it is. Rubbish.

    God bless you in this endevor many times over!!

  22. I am having a problem with the same. As much as I say i know I am forgiven, I continue to remember the past and shudder. I will continue to pray about it and hope it will one day be a thing of the past.

  23. Mary permalink

    Thank for those words; they are exactly what I needed to hear in my walk. I have been through a lot the last few years, some of it my own doing. I know that God has forgiven my sin, but after 5 years, I am still struggling to forgive myself. I guess it’s just one of those failings that we humans have. The closer I grow to God, the more He eases my pain and lets me know that all is forgiven because I have asked it. When I dwell on it for too long He always reminds me that I am not the same as I was then and that I will never go back to that place. It is also something I have been trying to help my daughter with because she has gotten into trouble this last year. She has come back to God and is trying to get her life back together. I will print this out for her, because I know it will encourage her as it has me.

    • mary winski permalink

      I am so glad that I am a Christian someone who believes in Jesus Christ and has proclaim Him as my Savior and once we have that relation ship with God there is the beautiful feeling of being God’s Child. I am so proud to Jesus in my life. Jesus will never forsake you He is with you for eternity! believe and have faith……………

  24. Lisa Moore permalink

    Amen to that, Mark! He who is forgiven of much, loves much! 🙂 God Bless!

  25. chris dall permalink

    amazing stories! i find inspiration in all of these! i have felt the hurt,and often wonder if ive felt alone in this journey..but ther is so many people with the same struggles as i..i look to the Lord and know that it will all be ok!

  26. jennifer henderson permalink

    I have messed up in the worst of ways possible..there are days when i feel forgiven by our gracious Lord and there are many days that the devil wins and I beat my self up over and over again. God does forgive and forget but we as humans dont…so easily. How do we or I get past all the judgement from others…How do I fix all the wrong ive done..somethings just cant be undone. I know it is God who we are supposed to look to for forgivness and to fill that void in our hearts and minds but im turly at a point of just being lost in all this???

  27. Aldranette permalink

    I thank you in so many ways for this. It has made me see my own faults. Forgiveness
    is a big thing inlife and something I need to work own never to not forgive the next
    But to forgive myself. Thank you again

  28. Mark Thank you for your obiedience to the Lord, I confess I haven’t read every blog but I will say every blog I have read has touched me in just what I needed for the day! I am a full time Grandma (watching Jacob 11 months old While daughter is in College) full time student and have a ministry also. We have had 4 saved in the past month How I wish it were 4 Million! As I read this I was reminded of a word my little sister Debra Ann gave years ago You need to dump that trash can! It helped me to do the action of dumping all that trash into can and dump the can shaking all of it off. I never will forget the day I saw in the Word Psalms 18 these word ( Therefore has the Lord recompensed me according to my righteousness (my uprightness and right standing with Him), according to the cleanness of my hands in His sight.) The first time God says the Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness. I did not Feel very righteous. But when I saw according to the cleaness of my hands in His Sight Wow everything changed. God Bless You I am going to go Praise and Worship And get that trash can empty!

  29. Chris permalink


    Thanks for touching on a subject that I’ve been dealing alot with recently. It’s so important to remember that when God forgives us of our sins, we don’t need to hold on to that guilt of sin. I think Satan uses that as a tool to keep us from our spiritual walk with Christ and I know from experience the challenge it can cause. Thanks so much for the reminder. God Bless You, my brother in Christ.


  30. Robert West permalink

    I subscribe to several daily devotionals, I always open your’s first. I really enjoy “Journey Deeper Into God’s Word”. It seems so real, I can relate! God bless you, and keep up the good work!
    Robert West

  31. Lord thanks for that i really need that amen lord please hear my cry i really need you 2 work on me and my boyfriend please help us and our baby help us stay 2gether for our family sake thank you, lashaye

  32. Amen to that… and thank’s for posting this

  33. G-Slim permalink

    About 2 years ago i got saved and it felt great. My whole outlook on life changed, i felt God’s love, His peace. I was walking closely with God, studying the word hours at a time, my prayer life was great, spent a lot of time helping other and doing things for the church but a few months ago i backslid and backslid hard. Now im having a hard time bouncing back, and the hardest part about continuing my walk with God is forgiving myself and forget the sinful things i’ve done.

    • Marjorie Gilbreth permalink

      Leaving behind my sins and not reliving the ‘ thought’ of them is so hard.
      Why does it seem so easy for some people and not for me. Some people say they feel the burden lifted. My seems so temporary. I question my convictions!!! I know that satan plays mind games and that is where his stronghold is. I continue to ‘re-align’ myself with God on a daily basis.
      Nothing should be between my God and myself! My daily Bible reading reminds me that God is always in the same place everyday. I’m the one that moved! Never give up. Confess you sins out loud to your Lord.

  34. Buddy permalink

    i have found it difficult to forgive myself. even after confession..i had been told to no longer dwell on my past sins…but they are constantly popping up..i just dont know..and for me to sin again..just makes it worse..please pray for me

  35. Tracey Younger Parham permalink

    Thank You for that Encouragement and the word of God I’m truly blessed and highly Favored that the Lord see fit for me to get what I need to continue this journey called Life!!!

  36. Shawn permalink

    Wow, Andrea. That was beautiful and uplifting. I needed to hear that. Thanks.

  37. Thank you for this message Pastor Mark,
    I want to also thank you in the name of Christ and the Body of Christ for being a man of God that is genuine ,transparent and not affraid to show he is still human , that is true leadership and the poeple can relate .God bless you my dear brother ,keep standing in the gap showing people the way thru the Living word of God.
    Love in Christ , Patricia

  38. Buffy Janes Jessie permalink

    GOD did not say being a Christian would be easy because it is not easy at all. I strive everyday to lead the kind of life GOD would want me to live but with all the temptation in the world it is really hard. I know none of us are perfect because Romans 3.23 says For all have sinned and fall short of the Glory Of GOD.I truly love the Lord and all that he has done for me. GOD has blessed me in so many ways and I continue to fail him. We are kinda like the Children of Israel, down here wandering around waiting for someone to come deliver us and help us find a better home. Well if you are saved and have accepted Jesus as your Lord and Saviour you have that promise of a better place than where we are now. I will go home on of these days, my permanent home for the place I live on Earth is only temporary just like everything here. So please accept Christ as your Lord and Savior before it is to late if you dont know him.

  39. Allen permalink

    Hey Mark,

    By the way thank you for sharing your journey, it is very uplifting.

    You know I think half the time when old sins come to mind; ones that have already been washed by the blood, it is satan. It always seems in my life anyway that when my walk with Jesus is going good, that there is that little voice in the back of my head reminding me of my past, and believe me it was a colorful past. I praise God for his mercy and grace that he can take a sinner like me, clean me up, and welcome me into his arms.

    Take care, and God bless

  40. Joseph Lyles permalink

    Great post on forgiveness. I once heard a friedn say that God’s forgiveness is so complete that its like we never even did what we’re forgiven of. That’s how complete forgiveness is.

  41. There is a running joke in our men’s ministry involving this very subject. The idea is that we all struggle with letting our sins go. We grossly equate this to our activities on the toilet. When we are done, we never reach back in to take anything with us, instead we fllush the toilet. We use this gross humor to remind us that we need to flush our sins away or leave them at the altar. God does not want us to reach back in to take them with us!!!

    • Andrea permalink

      That’s an awesome way to think of our rubbish!! LOL!!! I will use this too! Awesome. Thanks for sharing this with us.

  42. Candi permalink

    Mark, Thanks for your word today. It really struck home with me. I know that God forgives us our sins,but OH how I do struggle leaving them at His feet to deal with them. I feel they are mine, and I am not worthy of His forgiveness, so even though I lay them down, I often pick them back up. I wish there was a way to just leave them there and not pick them up again, but I know I am not the only one who struggles with this. Our faith is the key. Only God can throw out our sins. We need to confess them, then trust and believe He will wipe them clean, making us white as snow. We need to have the faith to know that this is so. As our faith continues to grow, we can believe that He will forgive and forget our sins.

    Thanks again.

  43. Christina permalink

    Right now whatever you may be going through may make it seem as if it’s “all rubbish”. But my friend it’s not all rubbish. God’s Word is a blueprint for living – and it will teach you to let go of the rubbish and keep the good stuff. My life used to be filled with A LOT of rubbish, most of it created by me. But through God’s loving grace and forgiveness, I’ve been able to clean myself out (so to speak) and choose to do good, speak good and think good. Doing good, speaking good (getting rid of the negative language in your life) and saying no to ugly or bitter, and negative thoughts in your life is a good place to start. Read the word. The Bible is God’s plan for your life. The New Testament is God’s love letter to us all. “For God so loved the World, that he gave his only begotten Son. That whosoever should believeth in him, shall not perish but have everlasting life.” John 3:16

  44. Kimberly permalink

    Hello Mark:

    My struggle with this comes from back in Feb. we lost our home, a car, and so much of our personal belonges. We had already been struggle because my husbands company was losing business, so we had lost our house and had to move to a rental home. We faced this struggle with the Lord and walked away with full belief the Lord had a purpose for it and we were walking into his blessing of a way into a new furture. Well it didn’t work out that way. Things just kept getting worse. We struggled to pay rent and at Christmas day we sat together as a family in roman noodles (Husband,four children, one with Duchenne’s Muscular Dsytrophy and me) praying that God was going to bring us through it all. Well the landlord was done with us not paying on time and after the second week of Jan. we came down on us hard. He gave us three days to get out of his home. We had no where to go and no place to take our stuff. Thankfully we moved into a couple of rooms at my dads and just had to leave so much stuff, but we have each other. My husband is still looking for work that can get us back on our feet. I had to write this to hopefully let go of the pain of it all. For I am so strong with God’s promises one second then the next I’m crying my eyes out lost with what I am to learn from this all. This is only a small part of the story. I even lost our family dogs that we had for 9 years. This has been so hard on me. I have so much on my plate that sometimes I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out again. Today this came into my hands and also Eph. 4:31 “Get rid of all bitterness, rage, and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.” I do find myself being bitter to my family and others at times and not showing the love I should to those around me. I am broken and daily in search for God’s calling. It is so hard being the strong hold of the family. And I worry for my husband because it is harder on him then me. Please Lord I pray that this becomes a step in a the way of healing for me. You know what I am facing more then anyone else and I need your answers for my life and for my families. I’m so lost at how long this must go on. I have so much going on I can’t even focus on my boy with DMD. Please help me and guide me and show me your ways. I love you Abba and need you desperately.


    • Andrea permalink

      Praying for you Kimberly and your family. Start speaking the Word out loud. Hearing yourself speak God’s Word builds your faith and keeps you from thinking wrong thoughts. Do all that you can do and stand in hope and in faith like you have been. God knows you’re only human. Your breakthrough is right around the corner. Believe it and say it every day. David, in the bible, encouraged himself with songs, psalms, and poetry; all focused on God. Girl, just keep your eyes on Jesus and know when you’re slipping into depression that JUST LIKE JESUS TOOK PETER’S HAND, He’s got yours. There’s one set of footprints in the sand for a reason, right? So, encourage yourself. Love and Prayers to you from a sis in Christ!!

  45. SammySue7 permalink

    I have to say Thank You, as well. I just got an e-mail reply from my pastor about my struggles with forgiving myself for past decisions. His reply was fantastic, but he said I needed to heal my soul and that an upcoming series we have should really help…but I guess I am impatient. So, today when I read this blog and all of the comments, it really helped me see that I am not alone and that there is hope and that some day soon, I will finally be released from this guilt and shame and focus on giving God the glory in all things. I can feel it happening already….THANK YOU!

  46. Sherry permalink

    If we have unforgiveness in our hearts I don’t think he hears our prayers. I pray that we confess our sins, even the ones that we may need to be made aware of (just ask) so as to have our prayers heard.

  47. We must do our best to recognize when we are slipping and allowing the enemy to interfere with our relationship with the Lord. The Lord allows him to, but gives us what we need to over come his disasters in the holy word. Praise God for now leaving us nor forsaking us. Shame on me for not really beleiving that before.

  48. Don permalink

    I think many people can relate. I know that He forgives us but we can still feel unforgiven when others hold things against us for what we have done, no matter how we have shown our sorrow for our sins and tried to make amends. When I think of the Psalms that was shared and how I feel, I think about what Paul wrote in Romans 7:7-25 (see below) and I know that I am sinful but through my forgiveness by the blood of Christ that He will rescue me from that sin. The conviction that we feel that when we sin, we have so much remorse is the Holy Spirit communicating with us to remind us that we no longer belong to the evil one but to Him alone. And He can help us stand up under any challenge that we face.

    “What shall we say, then? Is the law sin? Certainly not! Indeed I would not have known what sin was except through the law. For I would not have known what coveting really was if the law had not said, “Do not covet.”But sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, produced in me every kind of covetous desire. For apart from law, sin is dead. Once I was alive apart from law; but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life and I died. I found that the very commandment that was intended to bring life actually brought death.

    For sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, deceived me, and through the commandment put me to death. So then, the law is holy, and the commandment is holy, righteous and good. Did that which is good, then, become death to me? By no means! But in order that sin might be recognized as sin, it produced death in me through what was good, so that through the commandment sin might become utterly sinful.

    We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

    So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
    So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.”

  49. mark bermas permalink

    where almost the same in that situation. until now I’m still fight it to leave my sin and to live righteousness. And God will lead us into our journey, even a thousands of temptations and trials will come.

  50. Hi Mark,
    I too struggle from beating myself up over past things…….Thanks be to God Im learning to let it go cause God has dismiss it. So I thank you for your post….Truly today has been and is a great day for me and a New focus on God and my walk with him as God desires to do his will in my life daily. I receive it, I claim it, Its MINE……To God be the Glory. Im blessed in all areas of my life…….God has me right where he wants me and he is working it out daily as I grow!

  51. Kim permalink

    If God forgives me then why can’t I?

    I am not sure I have ever really thought about it this way. Maybe that is what I need to do in order to be able to forgive myself of my past.

    Thanks this blog helps me.

  52. Oriana permalink

    Thank you for writing this blog Mark. I am one, a woman who struggles with sin and it is often very challenging. The issue I always run into is forgiving myself as God has forgiven me because I feel that my sin was so bad, how could he ever forgive me. You have given me a new way to look at the situation of sin- it is rubbish. Now, I need to stay prayerful throughout my sinful nature that I will not commit the same sins again and again.

    Again, thank you.

  53. Gail permalink

    I have not read everyone’s comments yet. I could not get that far without sharing.
    I have been through divorce and the mega pain of that, from a verbally abusive husband, but more then that I see how it all has hurt my kids, and still does. One day a few years ago (my divorce was in 91), as I was walking, and fretting over my son, talking to God about how I had made such a mess of things, how I felt it was my fault that Josh is like he is……God said to me “What makes you think this is about YOU!”………well, that stopped me in my tracks, he then told me “You are blocking my work with Josh, leave him to ME!” I asked for forgiveness, realizing how self centered I was being, never knowing that my actions were really selfish. I released my son to God, and withing 3 days, the reports coming from my DIL were beautiful, I told her about God’s conversation with me and when and she said, that that was the same day things started happening. Now is my son perfect, nope, he still struggles, but I know now that God will deal with him. The other things this did was to take away all the stress I was heaping upon myself over the past.
    God’s Blessings to each of you.

    • Mary permalink

      Bless you Gail 🙂

    • Don permalink

      @Gail – I have to say thank you for sharing that with us. Even though I have said the words that I leave my two sons, my daughter and my wife (married by God, divorced by man) to God and trust Him with everything to lead them to Him, I must truly trust Him. Your story of how God started to help your son (and DIL) as soon as you trusted God to work on him is amazing. Why do we have such a problem with control?

      Lord, please be patient with us as we learn that we aren’t in control and to trust You with everything in our life!

  54. Christian Espaillat permalink

    I feel the same way brother. I’m going through that same guilt (if we can call it that). Temptation is evrywhere, we need to use our strength & will to resist as much as possible. God Bless You, brother.
    Thank you,
    Christian Espaillat
    Your Brother-In-Christ

  55. Christopher Ales permalink

    I have had problems with unforgiveness of myself in the past. That’s just what Satan needs to keep us in bondage to our sin. Our guilt and shame. Then one day the Lord spoke to my heart and said “if I gave my sons life for the forgiveness of your sins what right do you have to not forgive yourself.”

  56. I can remember as a teen my pastor delivering a sermon on God’s forgiveness and how when he forgives, he also forgets. To this day there are still some things that I did in the past that I can’t forget. Even though I had asked forgiveness I can’t seem to forget them. It’s quite frustrating. In a sense I feel the past is holding me or even trying to pull me back.

    My heart tells me this is just Satan trying to keep me distracted so I won’t reach my full spiritual potential. I was told that if Satan is constantly harassing you, it’s because he’s extremely afraid of what you will achieve spiritually in your life. He sees you as a real threat to his mission and he’s set on stopping you.

  57. Frederick Shackles permalink

    God is holy and dwells in holy places. When I fall short of the glory of God I feel a need to wallow in my self-pity to show God that I am truly distressed about what I have done. The truth is, God wants to be a part of every moment of our lives but unless we seek forgiveness for our sins and let the past go he will not dwell within us. When we ask forgiveness and are sincere about turning from committing acts of sin he forgives us. For he loves his children and is a very compassionate and forgiving God.

  58. JoAnn permalink


  59. Nisy permalink

    Thanks for these words, they came into my life at the right time and my day is back on track, now i can smile again, i love you god, if u didnt abandoned me when i was in sin i know you wont do it now that i have asked for forgiveness from deep down my heart, and yes he has prove to me that im not alone, because when the enemy tried to come into my life to do bad to me they having been able to because my lord is there protecting me, and trust me they keep trying but with no success!!! IF IM WITH JESUS, NO ONE AGAINST ME, I LOVE U GOD!!!

  60. Samuel permalink

    So hard some days to remember that all of our sin, our past, is washed away. Especially when there are constant reminders, either people, places, songs, events, dates, or the worse, thorns in the flesh. It is a deliberate daily occurrence for me to remember in those times that His grace is sufficient and that He loves me and so so many others who belong to His family, that I am not the only one and that is why God puts others in our lives. So we can reach out when we need comforting on the earthly level and so we can be there for others when they are in need.

  61. Jillian permalink

    I too pray for guidance on forgiving myself and the strength to move forward to live His word. I have found that if I take a few moments to reflect on the lessons I have learned from each mistake or sin, I can release it easier believing that He has made me stronger by blessing me the ability to recognize my sins and repent. I live each day as a learning experience, rejoicing in His glory.

  62. Paula permalink

    If God forgives you, who are you to choose not to forgive yourself? Do you have a higher standard for behaviour than God does? I think not. As for forgetting, we are not supposed to forget our sin, nor the consequences we paid for having committed it. That is what influences us to avoid the same sins in the future. Once you have learned your life lesson regarding that sin there is no longer any usefullness in immersing yourself in the pain it caused. It is like touching a hot stove … long after the pain is gone the scar remains as a reminder of a bad choice. So forgive yourself, let go of the pain you are embracing, but look at the scar once in a while as a reminder of how damaging sin can be. Jesus paid the price for all the sins you have ever committed and all you will ever commit (and you will due to human imperfection). He cannot be nailed to the cross again for your sins. The price is paid once and for all, accept his costly gift of forgiveness don’t refuse it out of pride or self-pity. Your sin is gone, you have been set free.

    • Andrea permalink

      Paula, I so love how you put this!! The words just jumped at me and into my heart. Thank you for posting this. I want to print this off and carry it in my purse so that I can read it when I need it!!! God bless you and everyone else reading this.

  63. Mark : I struggle myself with my past sin … its so hard to just forget it … It is so wonderful that God gives us a 2nd chance to get things right … Temptation in the world makes it hard but with hope faith trust and confidence in the lord its helps me every day … may God continue to work in my life for I am very blessed by his work and changes and direction he is taking my life … Thanks for sharing your part with us… its amazing that God puts it on ppls heart to share there testmonies so that we dont feel as if we are the only person in the world struggling with the same fights… may God bless you ..

  64. Tammy Sheppard permalink

    I tend to take back my sins and dwell on them. I’m trying to learn to leave it behind completely. I have to remind myself over and over that after I give them to God, they are no longer remembered by God. But as I am only human and a sinner, I find it extremely difficult to forgive myself and forget about my sins. I am very hard on myself. And of course because of that, I battle continually with myself and Satan. I end up making my own life more difficult than it has to be. With God’s help, I will learn to leave my sins behind once they’re given to Him. One of many things I need His help with. Hence the Bible reading everyday and watching the Christian channel more than any other.That helps alot. And prayer. Thankyou for your teaching on forgiveness. It is very much appreciated.

  65. Lindsey K permalink

    I always struggle with dwelling on what I have done and have already been forgiven for… I constantly am looking over my shoulder at what I screwed up or thinking about how anyone could love someone that did that. But then I remember how God has completely wiped my slate clean! And honestly thats all that matters so then it helps to lessen the intensity of the regret I hold onto… but yet it doesnt get rid of it all… I am 18 and am still looking back on stuff i screwed up with before I came home. Its not just you. 😀

  66. Alex permalink

    I am like you- its hard for me to let go!
    It’s hard to forgive myself- bc as a young Christian I feel God has BIG plans for me & when I mess up delieberately or not I am harder on myself. Even when I know God forgives.

  67. L.R.D permalink

    you see I my self find me in a dweling place of sin and happen to not find the door to free my self from sin. Like most of you said we pick up the trash and bring it again. The question is do YOU forgive ? because if you dont forgive others that harm you how do you show worth of being forgiven . Jesus himself forgave those who thought against him and he loved them with al his mite EVEN THOUGH they plotted against him. I’m 18 and I know i cant speak much because I know I am a sinner but I pray to god with al my heart that he listens to a lost sheep that he please forgive this soaked with sin me as I forgive those who have hurt me and plotted against me .

    I myself like “Andrea” was molested and it was awfull I remember it know like it was yesterday I was only 6 years old and it was horrible and i pray that no other child has to go thtough what i did but god has been there for me in so many ways i mean so many he’s tought me how to fogive even if my head is against it forgive with my heart my mom herself pushed me away and those are things that hurt me alot but i love her and i forgave her its all about forgiveness read San Mateo 6:14,15

    I hope my word are helpfull to all have a blessed day ❤

  68. Stacey Ellis permalink

    Pastor you just described me. I don’t know why I can’t seem to forgive myself. I torture myself.

  69. Dawn permalink

    This morning before I got out of bed I was thinking about regrets and wondering if having regrets was similar or the same as not forgiving one’s self? I have such a difficult time not beating myself up with sins that I have repented and asked forgiveness for. I often wonder why if God has forgiven me , do I keep doing this, is it because I doubt His forgiveness, do I think so lowly of myself that its hard to believe God would even want to forgive me? This message came at the perfect time Mark. Thank you so much. I think I needed reminding that God has not only forgiven me, He has forgotten my sins and if that is the case I have no right to keep hanging on to the rubbish. I will be placing it in the garbage can and letting it go to the dump.

  70. Steve permalink

    I too have things that I struggle with, blatantly it seems at times and then unintentionally. I’ve been seeking understanding on sin, not so much what is sin and what isn’t but how to deal with attitude wise, how to deal with the grilling that people give to you, and
    how to view it.
    I am not under the law, I am under grace. I’ve heard people say that we stand under a constant flow of forgiveness and every sin I will ever commit is forgiven and I want to believe them, but then I hear others behind the pulpit screaming stop sinning or God won’t bless you/you’ll miss your call/breakthrough, and then I go read the bible, Romans right now, only to be left standing here unsure of anything.
    As far as people casting blame goes, what I think I understand that if they’re Christian, let whom ever has no sin cast the first stone(so since Jesus has taken our sins does this me we’re allowed? I say no.). If your accusers are people that belong to the world, remember that the enemy will use them too. You have the mark of God, the Holy Spirit on/in you and it makes people feel convicted just by you being in their presence( we probably just aren’t aware of it as much as we should be)…. so their obviously under pressure anyway. They just think they don’t like you for what you did or the way you look or act. That… and we tend to walk around like we’re forgiven..
    Anyway, I’m sure about how much I have right because I’m still searching for a revelation, but I felt like I should share this.
    Oh, and one more thing, and I really hope this is God: I REFUSE TO BE CONDEMNED ANYMORE… BY ANYONE!

  71. Marcia permalink

    Hi Mark,

    Thanks for your honesty – it shows the struggles that we all go through as humans. God wants us to be transparent and accountable that way we can pray for each other and bear each others burden. I must admit sometimes after throwing out the garbage instead of forgetting it I recollect it. But God is LOVE, He is forever faithful. Thank God that His mercies are new every morning and he forgets our sins. Praise God. Keep on your Journey Mark I’m with you.

    Sis. In Christ,

    God Bless You.

  72. Interesting post and comments.

  73. If God says it, we need to BELIEVE it, the key word is BELIEVE, which I myself struggle with…..all the TIME……..

  74. Patrick permalink

    I seem to always come back to the same sin that I have asked God to forgive. I know that God is working with me because why would He bring me right the place where I can get help and then abandon me. But sometimes I feel that because of my sin and the fact that I keep going back to it that He is just going to leave me. I am slowly learning though that God never leaves even though I know I deserve it.

  75. Adriana permalink

    Mark Thank You for that encouragement, your site is such a blessing from God! God is teaching me about forgiveness also. I’m living with someone who has poor judgement and because of that, has hurt me alot through my life. The Lord is teaching my about the power of forgiveness. And if I want the pain to go away I must forgive from my heart not my mind! Forgiveness does by no means, mean that your saying it ok that they hurt you. Your giving your hurt to the Lord because he is your redeemer and vidicator, and he will repay those who have wronged you His way and in his timing. And He wants to repay you for your loss and hurt. But what he’s asking you to do is repent for your wrong feelings towards that person and forgive them. Forgiveness is canceling a debt or obligation you think they owe you because of your hurt. God wants to repay you, He wants to show Himself to you. If your waiting for the other person you may be waiting a long time and that ties you to them. Putting that person where God desires to be in your life. In return he will give you his peace that surpassing all human understanding, not as the world gives but as He gives Amen! Forgive and you will no longer be tied to the hurt and pain! One struggle I’m still dealing with is receiving His forgiveness. I have looked up about every scripture I could find on forgiveness, this is one that has really helped me…”I write to you, dear children, because your sins have been forgiven on account of his name!” John 2:12 Wow just like that, what a gracious God we have!! It’s like he’s saying “ah my child your sin has been forgiven, go on and sin no more.” And if I you do I will forgive you everytime after because I love you. For God so loved the world he gave His only begotten (unique,special) son, so that we might have life! Wow! He’s giving us this gift and its just our job to receive it. It’s like giving your child a gift that you put so much effort and thought into, and they say oh no mommy I’ve been to naughty to take this from you! Nothing delights God more than when we receive His gift with childlike faith! He has given this to us, just because He loves us, that’s it! The is one way God is showing us His unfailing Love…Does His Love have a limit neither does His forgiveness, His love fuels forgivness….How great is the love the Father has lavished on use, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are -1 John 3:1 !! It delights him just as much as it does us to see someone open a gift that we’ve put so much thought into, with excitement and delight, He feels the same way when we just receive his precious Gift. It’s so hard to do because its so simple…. This took a long time to get from my head to my heart. And I just wanted to share this with the rest of you, I hope it helps…God Bless you ALL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  76. Dawn Freeman permalink

    It’s been really hard for me to forget the past. The enemy likes to remind me and try to keep me dwelling on it. However, God recently delivered me from it. I am not looking back either (Gen 19:26).

    Hallelujah! Now, I am free! It’s a new day in Jesus Christ! I am moving forward and pressing on toward the center of the mark. (Philippians 3:12-14, Ephesians 1:3-23, Ephesians 6:10-20)

  77. Whitney permalink

    This is really a reminder that i need to forgive myself and others and move on. i often say i do but as someone said above i know my feelings havent caught up to that yet, and it REALLY weighs down on hurts when it seems a though everyone you trust in outside of god abandon you like your family and close friends…i once felt so free and at peace but i fell back into my sin and now im afraid i will never have that feeling of peace again. it seems no matter how hard i try i wont get it right. i know this is the devil so why cant i fight these thoughts and feelings? i do kno i need to get back in my word a lot more and thats prolly the main issue. im working on myself so please keep me in your prayers. i want to be at peace again, before i die. thankss mark for helping me take the first step.

  78. Stephanie permalink

    God has blessed u with a wonderful opportunity u have been such a blessing to me and this particular piece I really need. I feel like the worst person in the world. I have always had a problem forgiving myself. I read a piece u published about what ur desires were and how God opened this Facebook blog up for u. It must be hard to fit it into ur schedule. I pray u can continue it but only God knows how much He can stretch u 

  79. Nicole permalink

    I have always wondered….. If God forgives you of your sins and forgets about them when you pray to Him and ask Him for forgiveness, does He get reminded of them if we think about them since He knows our every thought?

  80. Linda permalink

    One thing I truly know that when I do leave the rubbish, I am always blessed by the Lord….rubbish just gets in my way and my walk with the Lord. Situations happen and things occur, but I am so blessed and honored to have the one person in my life that cares more than anyone for me….his name is the Lord, Jesus Christ and what an honor that is to be his child. Thank you Lord for listening and being there everytime I need you. When someone hurts me, it is truly difficult, but many time the Lord brings me back to an understanding of what the person is going through and open shows me what I may have done….I am so thankful for his grace everyday.

  81. Linda permalink

    One thing I truly know that when I do leave the rubbish, I am always blessed by the Lord….rubbish just gets in my way and my walk with the Lord. Situations happen and things occur, but I am so blessed and honored to have the one person in my life that cares more than anyone for me….his name is the Lord, Jesus Christ and what an honor that is to be his child. Thank you Lord for listening and being there everytime I need you. When someone hurts me, it is truly difficult, but many time the Lord brings me back to an understanding of what the person is going through and always shows me what I may have done….I am so thankful for his grace everyday.

  82. Jeff permalink

    Thnx bro. I needed that…

  83. jessica permalink

    So awesome!!!! Beautiful!!!!

  84. Believe permalink

    For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
    If your past mistakes is haunting you, who is calling them into remembrance? You or the devil?
    If you believe in God then you must believe there is a devil. If you are doing God’s work and reaching people, thus making them turn to Christ & God and seek God. AND YOU CLEARLY ARE. Then you know satan is disturbed, you are disturbing his work he has done in turning people away from Christ and God.
    Satan knows the scripture better than we do. He also believes in prayer- not that he practices it – and the scriptures.

    He knows the full scope and impact you are having on people. As I said, people he had attacked and were turning from God are reading your blogs and re-evaluating there relationship with Christ and God. They’re finding strength and encouragement also through the replies of those reading your blogs.

    Satan has to attak you somehow, therefore he is attacking you. Time is runnning out on earth , satan knows this. He wants all in hell with him and his cohorts as he can get.
    Put on your armor, you’re on the battlefield. If you asked to be forgiven with your whole heart in Jesus name and are sorrowed of your actions. You are forgiven. Don’t let satan steal your victory. You’re a child of God’s.
    Fogive yourself of your sins this to is a must. Satan will bring your past up so you holdit against yourself, thus putting a block between you and God. Rebuke it in the name of Jesus and have faith in all that you know to be true.
    Satan brings up your past, remind him of his future and rebuke him and those thoughts in the name of Jesus. For your are the head and not the tail.
    If you are still committing those sins, then you pray and fast for delieverance. For his grace is sufficient for thee.
    People forget through their trials and struggles of living out this human phase of life, we are only passing thru. I do too at times, I have been through alot. Someday maybe I will tell you about my trials.
    How we live our lives on this earth, determines where our eternity will be spent. People worry about their lives, when its our souls and eternity on the line.We will all stand before God and give account. Every knee will bow and every tongue confesss, Christ is the risen king.I also promise you this satan will be there throwing up everything from pasts even things we no longer remember as reason why we are unworthy of Heaven. Thats his job to make us feel and remind us we are unworthy of Heaven so we give up on trying to live a life for Christ and God.
    If we give up and allow satan’s lies to steal our victory in Christ, then Christ’s sacrifice- He was beaten, mocked, spit upon when he hung on the cross was in vain.

    We complain about what we have endured in these lives and we do go through alot but what about what Christ endured? He cried tears of blood the night before his crucification, that is anguish.
    He was innoocent and perfect, His flesh was ripped from His body when He was whipped. His mother watched all of it.
    Christ did not deserve what He endured. If there was ever anyone who did not deserve the punishment they recieved it was Christ. But He endured and He did for you and me and all who would recieve Him.
    Mark, do not give up and do not let Christ’s death be in vain on your part. Trust in God’s word. Did He not say you would be forgiven if you asked Him?
    Does Our Father in Heaven lie? No! For He is not a man that can lie, is what I have read. I also read He is unchanging, He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
    We will go through trials and they will be hard, God will answer our prayers with no sometimes. But He knows what He is doing, He can see things happening our lives on down the road we cannot. He has His reasons for everything He does, even though we do not understand. This is where our faith is so important.
    We got to have faith. For God is not the only one who works in our lives.
    Always remember God is never early, He is never late but He is always right on time.
    Run the race, fight a good fight and be a good soldier in the army of the Lord.

  85. Jeff permalink

    I beat myself up over the past. I need to surrender that to God, and I still struggle with sin presently. But THANK GOD with the largest thanks in all the earth, that He forgives and forgets. i think we Christians sometimes only see forgive but still think God sees us as on thin ice. However nothing will ever separate us from God’s love. And His great love will guide and direct us away from our sin.

  86. I am strugling with sin, but thank you so much mark for making me realise tht once sins thrown away it would never come back, i need to surrender my tots to god so i would never do and think about it, i hv to change my mind tht i m not a slave of sins and i am forgiven,thanks lord for forgiving me. Teach me to obey you

  87. cindy permalink

    I really needed to read this tonight. I, too, have a tendency to beat myself up over sins of the past. Do I feel that I’m unworthy and therefore hang on to the proof of the errors of my very human ways, when everyone else, including God has forgiven and forgotten them?
    I wasn’t going to read this,but I was on the computer sending out some e-mails requesting prayer for a friend. Having read her e-mail to me concerning her breast cancer diagnosis and meeting with the surgeon later this week, I was praying, crying, and requesting prayer from everyone that I could think of.
    I’m not sure what caught my eye, but something did and I paused to read.
    Suddenly, I feel peace. About my friend, and about my personal struggle with my walk of faith.
    I am a person who likes a road map, lists of what to expect on the journey, and a plan, I know that God has plans for me as He leads me along. Not sure what they are, which is both exciting and frightening at the same time. Beating myself up is not in the plan. He is there to catch me when I fall and to forgive me when I go astray. It must be a huge slap in the face to Him when I hang on to what He has forgiven. He is gracious enough to forgive me, I must learn to be gracious enough to accept – and let go of it.
    Thank you for being so honest as you share your own struggles and feelings.

  88. ruby permalink

    I always tell myself this. It might help everyone else. So, I am sharing. The devil is ridiculously a defeated foe because everytime he reminds me of my sins, he’s just actually reminding me more of God’s love because God atoned my sin. It’s no longer seen by the Father. What is seen is Christ’s blood. I think we just get so guilty about God’s forgiveness because like Nicodemus, we couldn’t understand how He could forgive so quickly. But He does. HE actually did already. That’s the wonder of God’s love. His loving didn’t stop on the cross. It’s also seen in our daily walk. We are forgiven because of His grace not because we were kind or worthy of His forgiveness. So that no one could boast. God bless everyone! Thanks Bro. Mark for courageously sharing your struggles. Not everyone can do that. Not everyone does that. ^^

  89. lucy ng permalink

    Imagine rubbish gone & receiving a gift for throwing it!GOD intervened & stirred my enemy’s heart to let him know that he’s hurt me after I made my confession.I just said I choose to forgive the ones who ‘s hurt me!It is not before I confess …GOD wants to hear these words from my mouth before HE acts!!

  90. 1 John 2:1-2 (ESV)
    1 My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.
    2 He is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the sins of the whole world.

    What great comfort this is! We shouldn’t sin but if we do (and we surely will because we are still in the flesh) Christ advocates with the Father for those of us who are in Christ.
    While called to be perfect, we are not yet perfect, but Christ will one day make us so.
    I hate when I sin but I have the comfort of forgiveness from God, and the sacrifice and love of Christ to sustain me.

  91. Anita permalink

    Dear Mark,

    The rubbish in my life will not allow me to forget. Through the Lord, years ago, had given me a remedy too coping, by staying busy. A finding about five years ago disabled my business. I have a weak arthritic ankle that litterally sits me down more than I would prefer.

    Everyone in my life is effected. Satan uses this against me by allowing bad memories to surface and resurface. Many days I cry tears, and am unable to clear this rubbish.

    I hold on to the faith that I believe that God is not through with me. I know he is not punishing me. I believe that this another miracle that God through his only begotten Son Jesus Christ is going to clear this rubbish from out of my heart and deliver me from all pain and suffering.

    Presently my heart fills this great sadness and burden that is so overwhelming. I will next lye down in my bed and Cry out to the Lord until I am fast asleep.

    Dear Jesus Christ, show me the way to overcome.

  92. joe permalink

    “forgive us our tresspasses as we forgive those who trespass against us”
    I read those words but continually do not practice them-especially with myself
    I have done things in my life that for the longest time I felt were unforgivable-and i have been told that my ego is making my decisions more powerful than Gods because he has forgiven me for them by having his Son die for us on the Cross
    certain things to me are xtremely evil and i have done a number of them in my lifetime-nothing I have done is unique-they already have a name and a definition which means that others have done the same-this dosnt make what i have done to others any easier to deal with it just makes me feal i have fallen as low as others have and feel dirty and shameful
    I also say to others or think to myself that i have forgiven them but deep down the grudge resntment and anger still linger with thoughts of revnge and getting even poisoning my mind time and life
    to turn something over-to truely forgive and forget is something i want to learn to do-God please help this sinner !

  93. Jay permalink


    I don’t think you will ever know what your words have done for me. They have literally saved my life. I was just about at the end of my rope because of guilt due to past sin…sin for which I have already been forgiven. It was eating me alive and I simply needed someone to tell me it is ok to let it go. Thank you for saving my life.

    • Jay I am praising God right now for the way He is speaking into your life!! YES!!! God is so good! Mark Brown.

  94. Greg permalink

    Thanks Mark. As every day goes by, I feel better and better…
    May God be with us all!


  95. Lori permalink

    Don’t forget, sometimes you have to forgive yourself. That is also part of forgiveness.

  96. Paige permalink

    Hello, I don’t even know who you are but I read your blog from today. I then felt like God wanted me to respond with this:
    What your doing is reaching people. Do not get discouraged. It may be hard now but keep going. God is with you all the way.
    I don’t even know what you are doing lol but I just felt like God wanted me to tell you that. It gladdens the Holy Spirit inside of me to know that people are being reached by you though. 🙂 Your in my prayers.

  97. Veronica anderson permalink

    This is all very touching 🙂 I believe in you.

  98. Bryce permalink

    I have been struggling to forget the past sins that God has forgiving me for. But it’s getting better each day and this does help me so thank you. God bless you!!

  99. Hunter Norton permalink

    Mark, your words truely touch me. I struggle with sin. I fear that my sins won’t be forgiven. That all my faults and failures will live trailign on behind me the whole ride of my life. I fear that I won’t survive. I seem to blame myself for a lot of things that I don’t even do. I pray to God that I will be forgiven , to rid me of my sin, but I still fear that I’m not forgiven. That I carry this big sign that says, look what I did. I’m ashamed. You inspire me Mark, and I believe as well, many many others. What you do is truely amazing. God bless you. I’m only 15, and my faith keeps groing and growing, and thanks to you, there’s a constant reminder that Jesus is my best friend and will never betray me. Thank you,

  100. Michelle permalink

    This spoke volumes to me tonight as we all are human and have sin we need to ask forgiveness for then move forward believing and trusting in our faith of God. For he is the almighty and by trusting in him we can push forward to live a better life, get thru another day and move past the sins from the past. This doesn’t disregard the fact that we too have to forgive ourselves along with God knowing we are capable of being the best possible each day forward.

    I, as you, struggle with issues daily but in return have had many prayers answered lately that I know only God could do!

    Your words and prayers reach many all over the world and are looked forward to on a daily basis as sometimes this is what gets us through another day. I deeply thank you for you this.

    God bless you and your family always!


  101. Justice Akubue permalink

    If God could forgive me of all the nonsense I have done, despite the fact that I still repeat them sometimes; who am I not to forgive myself? Who am I?
    — I am Nothing!!

    May all the glory and honor be unto God – forever and ever, Amen!

  102. TideGrad94 permalink

    So often people think of God as children think of parents, as though he is just some person who enjoys making up rules, someone who then loves to get onto us when we break them. Yes, when we sin, we sin against God, and thanks be to Him that he forgives so easily–well, it’s not so easy in terms of the sacrifice He made, but now it is easy. When we commit sins against others, however, it is not only the betrayal to God that is the problem. There is the problem of what we may have done to another person, and anyone with any humanity will regret such wrongs. No Christian wants to harm another, and that is the reason we are not so quick to forgive ourselves. We do not have the power of God to entirely wipe the slate clean. When we put the rubbish in the can, we have made the step of throwing it away, but it still remains sometimes in the can that is part of our house. Our sins sometimes haunt us because we regret what we have done to another and what we cannot take back.

    My whole point here is that God knows we will feel this way when we sin against another. He knows the strength of the conscience, and this is another strong reason He has for wanting us not to sin. He knows the lasting effects that sin will have upon us. I believe that He wants us to let our sins go once He has forgiven us, but He also knows how difficult this can be, and the worse the wrong, the more difficult it will be to let go of the fact that we were capable of doing such a horrible thing to someone, especially if it is someone we love.

    God does not want this for us, so it is not just a list of rules He wants us to obey or a ton of fun He wants us to miss. He wants us to live happy, guilt-free, regret-free lives without the haunting of the wrongs we do against one another.

    It reminds me most of being a teen who is not supposed to have pre-marital sex and not understanding why it is such a big deal. It is not just the rule; it is also the additional pain that comes from taking a relationship to that next level and the resulting additional pain when the relationship ends or the interference other sex partners can have on future relationships, etc., etc.

    I believe that God does not want to have to be put in the position of having to forgive us partly because He knows He will do this easily; forgiving ourselves is the hard part, and He does not want this for us. So many people commit sins with the notion of how easily they will be forgiven by God. Unfortunately, that is the easy part. Perhaps people like that can easily forgive themselves. I can’t, so I try to also keep that in mind in making difficult choices, for example, that will effect people besides just myself.

  103. chrissy permalink

    I recently heard this quote…unfortunately I do not know who the original author is…”I have no fears or concerns when the devil tries to remind me of my past I just remind him of his future”

  104. Jennis permalink

    Paise God… amazing thoughts… i was worried for sometimes, how God will deal with my sins… yes am bornagain, but still… thank you Rev. Mark for this wonderful thoughts… yes am washed by His blood, and am debt free… all my rubbishes are Gone… God forgives and forgets… amazing, if God FORGETS, why am I thinking abt my past… Lord help me to forget my past and lead me. Amen. Love you all and God bless you….

  105. Caroline Smith permalink

    Mark, like you I struggle with sin of the past. I have asked the Lord to forgive me many times over. I do still struggle with some of my same sins from my past. My sin is anger. I know it is okay to be angry, but it is not okay to be sinful while angry. Sometimes, I am. However, I try to remember a few of the Bible verses when I am angry. For example: Ephesians 4: 26-27 NIV, “In your anger do not sin.” Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. James 1:19 My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry.

    Sometimes, I forget these verses and I start yelling and screaming at my husband or child when they cause frustration that builds my anger. God would rather me just speak to them in a normal calm voice about what my frustrations are instead of yelling and screaming. Please pray for me as this is my daily struggle. It doesn’t help that I am also struggling with a mild form of depression. I am discovering that part of my problem is the angry child that I was, and no one was the wiser to get me the help I needed. Here I am now a mother who has to try to gain and keep control of her anger. For I am starting to see some of the same patterns in my son due to this fact, I have sought out help for him and for me.

    Please keep my family in your prayers as I struggle with gaining control of my anger. It is hurting my marriage, and is effecting my little boy. I want God’s light to shine through me to my family especially my husband. My husband doesn’t want to go to church, and it seems he doesn’t want anything to do with God. My little guy wants to go to a church where there are children his age that he can play with and talk to. He does enjoy learning about God. He even has his own ideas about who God is, where God is. There was one time he told me that God was our neighbor, and that God had a car that can fly, and go real fast, so that if he had to leave he could, and be back as fast as he could. He also thinks God goes back up to Heaven to sleep when it is night outside.

  106. Michael Keaton permalink

    if this were not true, then i would be a complete mess and on my way to hell. thank you my LORD & GOD (Jesus Christ), for this truth about how You deal with sin in Your childrens lives.:)

  107. howarda permalink

    I know that God forgives my sins. But does He truly forget? Why can’t I forget? Why can’t I forgive myself?

  108. Olivier permalink

    Praise God
    Really encouraging words. It gets really hard to forgive myself or even believe I am forgiven when I commit a sin knowingly over and over again. How can I deal with some addictions?? I have beaten myself over and over again and feels like the guilt will kill me. Im trusting God to help me believe and believe in this word. Its truly awesome. Thanks Mark. This was meant for me.

  109. Keith permalink

    I struggle with sin and guilt all the time. Its humanity and our fallen flesh that feels we have to earn forgiveness, but in reality its grace. That is, and unmerited favor or gift given to us through Jesus’ life death and resurrection. We cant earn it. Were all human, we feel guilt, god understands this, god doesn’t want us to wallow in it, lay it at his feet and be made new. If you did wrong, let him forgive, if someone wronged you, leave it to him and let it go. This is hard for us to understand because we are still in our fallen flesh. Its love that ties it all together, perfect love is Jesus. Were not in our heavenly bodies, so therefore we struggle with sin, guilt, etc. I know I do all the time. The answers are there and most that read the bible have them, now putting it all into practice is a little harder. Thats why its a faith walk. God knows your not perfect, not one of us, no not even one. For if righteousness could be gained through the law or human effort or any other way christ died for nothing. So we know, that there is nothing we can do earn grace, Christ or forgiveness, we should just let go, leave the desert and rest in christ. Rest in the work of Christ that was already completed. Its hard I kinow. I struggle so much with this. I have other struggles as well being a man. I struggle with lust and pornography. I feel the sting of guild, shame, sorrow and conviction. So I fully understand where people are coming from. But were human, in fallen flesh, only Christ can set us free from this, and again its easier said than done. But trust, faith, hope, forgiveness, love, mercy are all found in Christ because all of these are a picture of Christ. Because Christ’s strength is made perfect in our weakness! Wow what an awesome god who forgave us! Who took me place and your place on the cross when it rightfully should have been us! WOW. I could never comprehend this. WOW is all I can say. Praise the name of Jesus the Christ!

  110. I’m new here,so I’m not savvy to all the subjects & feedbacks, so I will have to get to know this sight, and read and check out whatever will inform me of information pertaining to God & His Will. I am Very Deep into The Word of God, and I am Pretty Much up to date with what’s Happening, both Seen & Not Seen. God told His Followers,”I Will Show Thee Great & Mighty Things, which Thou knowest NOT!” THAT is Happening with Me, and I have Discovered that, it is Happening to Alot of Other People as Well! There is NO DOUBT WHATSOEVER, That We are The Last Generation, and We ARE Living in the Last Days, The Lord talked about! I am going to see what information is on here, so I can hear from the Christians on here say whatever They Learned from Their experiences, and what God is doing in THEIR Lives! I get Pretty Intense at Times, because The Lord is Showing me things that are BREATHTAKING, and That which is being Whispered in the Ear,is being Shouted from the Housetops! We need to Brace Ourselves, Because there are things just around the Corner, on a Very Short Block that is Fixing to Manifest itself, and We are about to Be VERY AFRAID, But The Lord says for Us that We are NOT Appointed unto His Wrath! SOMETHING is about to be Unleashed, and The Target is Something that The New World Order is about to Pull on the World! Not Neccesarily, Project Blue beam; But Something HORRIBLE! So, Brace Yourselves for Impact! God will be Like The Hen that Spreads Her Wings, to Protect Her Children!

  111. I was about to go, but I felt compelled to say what I feel God wants me to share.As much as 50 to 60 Years ago, there were Children that went to a Church, or a Bible Study with Someone. Perhaps even Someone on the Streets saw the Kids, and mentioned Jesus, and explained about Salvation, Sin, Repentence, and so forth, and these Children decided to Pray, and talk to God. I was One of Them. Things began to Happen. I don’t Know How Many People are involved with this. And that is Not just here in America! I’m talking about a WORLD WIDE HAPPENING! God Knew AHEAD OF TIME, about the devil Poisoning the Church, and what him & hid hoards were going to do. I’m talking about things the devil was ALREADY Planning at the Time of “The Happening”. Paul had written, “We are Not Ignorant of the devil’s devices!” ONE of them being ‘Prosperity’! ANOTHER, which Had to BY PASS What Jesus Taught Us about The SEVENTH TRUMPET! He Said Once The SEVENTH TRUMPET Sounds, THEN He is going to Send Forth His Angels to Pick Us Up to Meet Him In The Air, The SECOND The Great Tribulation is Over, and it is Over at The LAST TRUMP, Which is The SEVENTH Trump! “In a Moment, in the Twinkling of an Eye; (The Twinkling of an Eye is ONLY Meant for How Fast The Dead in Christ Rises FIRST! And How Fast The Christians STILL ALIVE Change into First Corinthians Chapter 15’s Explanation of The New Bodies, Change! The Twinkling of an Eye Does NOT pertain to How Fast Jesus Comes! It is Not JESUS That has to do with the Twinkling of an Eye! It’s The Speed of Which How Fast The Dead Rise FIRST, and How Fast Those Remaining that aree Christians, Change into THEIR New Bodies! God Formed a New Remnant, by Using The Children from The Happening! God Put Them through INTENSE Spiritual & Physical TRAINING! Our Lives were NOT a ‘Mystery’! Mysteries can be Solved! OUR Lives were an INIGMA! BEYOND Explanation! “WHY Isn’t God answering My Prayers?” “WHY am I going through All This?” ” Everything I Do Turns to Garbage! My Life has No Meaning!” “Doctor, I keep getting STRANGE Pains, and no Matter WHAT I take for it, it Just Won’t Go Away!” To See the Prosperity People driving Nice Cars, and living in Nice Homes, and seeing them So Blessed…You send in a ‘Seed’ and STILL Nothing Happens! No Answers! No HELP! WHERE Is God? WHY Won’t He answer My Prayers? Everything is Going WRONG! You go to Pastors, Ministers, Youth Ministers,Etc. And The Answers are Just Not Connecvted to The SOLUTION to The Problem! WHAT IS GOING ON?????? People are HURTING! And it’s Like, “WHY ISN’T MY PRAYERS BEING ANSWERED?” Well, GOD Explained in CHRYSTAL CLARITY What’s Happening! HE Knows How Many Times I Fell to My Kness and BEGGED For Answers and Solutions! Now, Alls I Can Say is, “WOW!!! WOW!!!! OH YES, JESUS!! WOW WOW WOWOWOWOW!!” Wooooooooooooooo – HOOOOOOOOOOOO!! 😀 Boy Oh Boy Oh BOY!! Talk about TRUE Prosperity! Haaaaaaaaaaaa!! Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! WE Just can’t go up to the Altar and ‘Accept God as Our ‘Personal Savior’! The devil SERIOUSLY Infiltrated GOD’S House, and Let Loose Truly FOUL AWFUL GROSE MAGGOTS!! Jesus Said, “YOU Did NOT Choose ME! (JESUS!) For, I Have Chosen YOU!” There are going to be VERY Upset ‘GOATS’ at the FIRST Judgement, because They THOUGHT (If God Paid Us to THINK, We’d HAVE to go on FOOD STAMPS!!) They were Saved, because Pastor Lou Siffer Told Them to do so, ‘With Every Eye Closed,and Every Head Bowed, and No One Looking Around”! But JESUS Said, HE Chosen The Chosen! “Many are Called, But FEW are Chosen”! ….”And FEW be They that will Find it!”…Jesus, talking about the Road which Leads to Eternal Life! So, Those Going Through UNSPEAKABLE Things, GOD Chose You, and HE was Putting Us through a BORN AGAIN TOUGH, ‘Boot Camp’ to Train Us For These LAST DAYS!! And HE TRAINED US BIG TIME!! ‘Wax On, Wax Off’!! When the devil who is maetreah, and the other 2 entities comes forth, it is NOT the Huch Ministries that will Fight the Unholy 3! DON’T BE STUCK ON HUCH!! The benny hinn worshipers, the pat robertsons, creflo dollar and the TBN Money/ Prospertity Gluttons that fight him & seek those that are lost! They are NOT DOING THAT NOW! And They WON’T Do it Later! The 2 Witnesses in Revelations that Witness to the World….FIRE Comes Out of Their Mouths, and They have the POWER to Put All Kinds of Plagues and What Not on their enemies! HOLY GHOST FIRE Will Rip a HOLE in satan’s toilet bowl throne, and The New Remnant will Roto Root his sorry behind! Teeth Grittin’ hard Core God’s NEW Army! Ex Gang Bangers! They are Being Saved WITHOUT The Church’s WORLDLY Teachings…The Rantings of FOUL devil possesed churchies! They are being Saved By GOD and He Has Ways to do it! Violent Offenders, Prostitutes, Alcoholics, Crackheads, Street gang Wannabes….People from Places that would give a Heart Attack to The Boogyman! “Judge Not lest ye be Judges is “Mommy’s Skirt”! Hiding behind an INCOMPLETE Verse, and Taking even THAT OUT OF CONTEXT, Because it EXPOSES Those Living in SIN! And Those thatQuote That like a Mantra are QUILTY of sin, and HATE Being Exposed! God tell those that Spout That, to PUT A SOCK IN IT! We have MORE Than a Fire in Our Gut! We Have a BLAST FURNACE!

  112. Aunt A permalink

    I struggle with this every day. I have beat myself up over something I have done. I have asked for forgiveness every day since it happened. My heart is sad and broken. I wish I could let it go because I know God has but every day has continued to be a struggle. Thank you so much for posting this, I am forever grateful! God Bless You!

  113. Lola Evans permalink

    I can relate to constantly recalling the sins of my past feeling so unworthy for quite sometime after my conversion to Jesus Christ. I could accept His forgiveness but not my own..finally the day came where I saw I was making myself Bigger than God. HE had forgiven me, yet I could not forgive myself..When I saw that I repented and of that sin and I have been okay since. My past does not overshadow me and I have no dark moments about that. The past is under the blood of Jesus and I have not had that dark spirit hovering over me since. That was over 30 years ago. HE is my life. Without HIM
    I am nothing. I love Him so and I am constantly aware of Him. I live alone, yet am not alone as I know He is with me and I speak to Him daily.

  114. Colette permalink

    Hey! Thanks for this blog. It is soo true. it reminds me of the man in the bible who gets picked up because he’s carrying a heavy load yet refuses to let it down..that’s how we treat sin sometimes, plus other problems that we need to let go and not worry about. I think the goal is to realize how big and amazing God is, and how small and incapable we are. Then we’ll stop trying to be so capable and let Him handle our sins, our problems, everything!

  115. Carolyn permalink

    Thanks for the post. Hanging on to stuff for which I’ve been forgiven is something I’ve dealt with for many years. Still do. My heart knows I’m forgiven but my head won’t listen. So, as a previous poster said, I beat myself up, A LOT!

    Keep up the good work with the encouraging emails.

  116. Edgar permalink

    I don’t care to have back the rubbish I leave at His feet. I placed it there for a reason and that is for Him to handle in His way, not mine. My way always leaves me longing and desiring, while His way leaves me satisfied and content with what He does and His way of doing things. While I tend to make a mess of things, He always comes along to straighten out those messes and leave an orderly house that He has made His temple. My life is a mess because of me. On the other hand, it is organized because of Him who came to give Life and give it more abundantly. Let Him handle the excess baggage and rubbish in your life and you will find that Life His way can be more satisfying and content even amidst situations and circumstances less than perfect.

  117. Gypsy permalink

    Hi Mark, Thank You for this email and God’s word. I have a past that I have gave up to the Lord, But I have family members that say they are Gods Children that can’t let it go. and are always reminding me of the past. what do you do then?? I have Prayed for them. I believe Live and let Live!! One thing i’m happy For the Cross’ and I know my sins are forgiven. I just wonder if this is my repentence’ to hear other people tell my life as if I wan’t there!!!

  118. Nomonde permalink

    My testimony
    By Nomonde Gaju
    My painful season

    The Lord says in His word that He WILL make a way for you in the wilderness. I never really paid attention to that verse before until I found myself deep within the wilderness that I saw no way out and all I wanted to do was quit.
    A couple of months ago I committed the worst possible sin and that’s blasphemy. Don’t ask me why cos I still have no idea. Little did I know that my journey as a born again Christian was going to take on a whole new path. I struggled for months and I got so depressed that there were times I just couldn’t and wouldn’t get out of bed. I opened the door to the attacks of the devil and all I could think about was: God doesn’t love me, maybe I don’t really love Him either, I’m a bad Christian, if I were committed to the Lord like I thought I was I wouldn’t be having all these blasphemous thoughts. I let the devil mess me around so much that I thought I was unworthy of being called a child of the Most High God, I felt ashamed to tell God about my thoughts but I knew that He already knew everything, He saw my doubts and lack of faith. There was only one thing left for me to do, TELL GOD everything I had done and ask Him to forgive me. He did, and I remember Him just sending verses my way about just trusting in Him and His love for me but I just would not allow myself to accept it. So I spent the next couple of months just punishing myself and falling into the devils traps over and over till I stopped blaming the devil and started thinking that maybe I’m the one who is evil, I’m the bad person, I’m not the me I used to be.
    What I’ve learned though from this whole spiritual battle I was facing was that Gods forgiveness and grace will never be limited. All you need to do is ask. Jesus covered you a long time ago with His blood and you just have to trust in the power of that blood no matter how hard it may be. I don’t know why God would want to love and honor and forgive and help and deliver and save someone like me but He does…Everyday. He shows up even when I don’t expect Him to and even when I don’t deserve Him to. But He is there…waiting on and for me. And I made another covenant with Him that come what may, I’ll always hold on to Him and to Jesus, I’ll always tell Him what I have done even when I’m too ashamed to and just trust that He will be faithful and just to forgive me my sins. I’ve still got a long way to go but I believe in my heart of hearts that the worst is over. I keep falling but the Lord keeps dusting me off and helping me start again. I lose my focus at times when I take my eyes off of Jesus but He is always there to give me a hand.
    I miss the old me, I miss how things used to be before the battle started, I miss being totally and utterly committed to Jesus. Now I’m just learning to walk again and by Gods grace I’ll be more into Him then I was before and I’ll live for Him more than I did before… I get scared at times…my thoughts scare me a lot cos I know I’m not the kind of person to rebel against anyone, especially God…But I did and the mere thought of it makes me sad, especially cos it happened more than once and it still does. But God doesn’t hate me for it. He knows my heart but nothing would make me happier than to live my life for Jesus and to be completely rid of any thoughts that are contrary to the word of God. The devil is a liar!! And may God rebuke him out of my mind forever. I pray that God will be with me as I continue in my journey with Him and that He will keep me faithful to Him and Him alone. The battle in my mind can, will and has been won by God.

  119. Rachel permalink

    Nomande- please go to this website. It will help you tremendously with your thoughts. I struggle with bad thoughts too, but this article really helped me. God bless!

  120. Sylvie Lusignan permalink

    I am walking with Jesus Christ!! On a exciting journey!! Getting to know my best friend, much deeper!! I really enjoy your teaching. May God give you lode’s of joy & wisdom, continuing on helping others!! Hallelujah. (The Bible)

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