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A little car and a big God.

July 15, 2010

The Lord is close to the broken hearted. He rescues those who are crushed in Spirit. -Psalm 34:18

I have been thinking a lot about my heart.  Yearning for a pure heart, seeking after God.  This is a big part of my journey right now, thinking a lot about the state of my heart.  I once had a very cool looking car, no it really did look great: a vintage yellow mini that cost me $300 and could be started with the end of a teaspoon.  For its impressive looks it had one major flaw: the brakes would fail quite often.  And being a poor student I wasn’t able to get them fixed, so I just kept driving.  One day a car in front of me suddenly stopped, I slammed my foot on the brake with no effect at all.  I swerved the car into the next lane, missing the car in front by centimeters and thankfully, there were no cars in the lane I suddenly entered (heart beating hard..).

My car needed fixing, and driving it without getting it fixed was incredibly dangerous (yes really).  In the same way my heart needs fixing, and leaving it broken is also dangerous.  The Hebrew word behind crushed in Spirit is daqaq which speaks of crushing, of being broken into pieces.  But it also means that God is our refuge.  So yes I may feel broken and crushed, but God is drawing me to Him, to rest and find strength, to be made whole again.

It is a normal part of life to experience pain and trials; what this awesome passage reminds me is that I am not alone in those trials and pain.  My task is to never forget that fact:  I am not alone!!   But also my task is to do all I can to fix the broken parts of me, to remove the pain as best I can.  It takes action from me in relationship with God.

It is a little like me driving around in my vintage mini car with a specialist car mechanic sitting in the car, ready to fix any minor problem with me as the assistant.

I am not alone!!  Praise God!!

Mark Brown

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36 Comments
  1. Nan Vroman permalink

    Thanks, Mark. Once again, an amazing comment and insight! There are parts of my heart that need fixing, and I will pray that God will fix the broken pieces of my heart in a way that only HE can do. God Bless!

  2. Richard Elmore permalink

    I’ve been trying to connect with God on my broken heart and nothing, I think it’s time to just give up, i feel as if he’s given up on me!

    • Jenna permalink

      Richard, I know the feeling…. right now my life is so empty… i’ve never been so depressed…. it seems as if He has given up on me and He let the devil take everything away from me. But we don’t know His plan… maybe all this pain and heartache is for a good reason, even if we cant see it yet. Trust in the Lord, remember, He will never put us through anything we cannot handle. He will definitely take us to our limits, but PLEASE remember- He will NEVER give up you!!! God Bless, you will be in my prayers

    • Richard dont give up on God cause he wont give up on you.Weeping may endure for a night byt joy cometh in the morning.My heart is broken in pieces for four years i have been really hurt and in tears and pain.But GOD will never fail you.his word says he will never give his children more than what they caN BEAR TRUST God.keep praying prayer changes things.

  3. Ruth permalink

    Please check out this site – it talks about the soon coming revival – may you be part of it.

    http://www.whitedoveministries.org/index.cfm?zone=Docs/Prophetic%20Words/PWBreakthrough.htm&page=Articles

  4. Eloise Bowen permalink

    It is amazing how God caused me to read this article after just sending an essay to my future daughter entitled, “Gentlemen, Start Your Engines.” It is an anology of preparations needed before driving the Indy 500 race course, comparing them as essential ingredients to prepare for the Christian’s journey through this life.
    It is an analogy of preparations that need to be made when preparing to race the Indy 500, and those same preperations need to made by a Christian to prepare for upcoming dangers in the road up ahead.
    Christ needs to be the engine, the heart of the car, and must be kept free from corroding factors as one faces the long journey through life.

    • I would very much like to read your essay, gerryl@gasebastian.com. I just joined yesterday and find this blog speaks to my heart.

    • Grisel permalink

      Eloise, I’m also very interested in reading your essay. Would that be possible? I’m struggling with making a deeper connection with God but He knows I’m doing my best, working hard on it and trying to decipher the steps for me to follow His will. It’s an everyday and constant battle for me vs. evil that won’t let me go.

      I’m clinging myself to everything I can to get closer to God; books, church, blogs (pastor Mark is witness…he!) and the bibles, this last one I have a really hard time getting to it. I’ll sure love your essay and get more insight to finally conquer and cross the bridge that will put God and me in the same spot!

      Thank you and God Bless You!

      Kipepeo1718@hotmail.com

  5. Kay permalink

    YES i need to be fixed good and proper. i am leading a terrible life of great sadness. I try to pray. People are praying for me but as yet nothing is happening….i am broken open and all so raw. I have reached rock bottom …maybe now the only way to go is up. BUT when will this happen? I dont feel i can last out longer without any meaning in my life and such emptiness

  6. It is amazing Mark how you have touched my heart today!!.”I am not alone”…i love this!God is ever with me on my side….am sure this journey can be comfortable if we fix the little short coming issues and move on!Great,God bless you and your family.

  7. Kay permalink

    RICHARD DO NOT GIVE UP. you need to be positive. even i have been waiting for changes but i am sure thay will come in GOD’s own time. I need to read positive things here…..

    • We need to know who is hurting in order to pray effectively for them and each other. I was where Richard appears to be now — g-d sent human angels to invite another member in my household to church on Mother’s Day 1983 — life will never be the same again — I was saved by His Mercy & Grace that day — He lifted me up over incredible circumstances — I saw Abba Father (face to face) through Spirit Baptism June 15, 1983 just like Abba promised in His Word — Jesus through The Holy Spirit is again walking me thru a deep, darkness again. Visited my oldest son (had not see in 20+ yrs) it was the most challenging event in my life so far — Steve appears not to be the person I have spent hours talking with. May Jesus heal our relationship.

  8. lLYNN permalink

    KAY, I AM SO HAPPY ABOUT YOUR RESPONSE TO RICHARD. IT SHOWS THAT YOU HAVE GROWN EVEN IF YOU DON’T SEE OR FEEL THE DIFFERENCE. AND RICHARD, GOD NEVER GIVES UP ON ANYONE. THIS I PROMISE YOU. I ONCE CURSED GOD, CALLED HIM A PERVERTED SOB AND OTHER NAMES. I WAS ABUSIVE TOWARDS GOD, YET HE STAYED WITH ME, LOVED ME AND SAW ME THROUGH THE TRAUMA AND HEARTBREAK IN MY LIFE. AND HE’LL DO THE SAME FOR KAY AND FOR YOU. DON’T QUIT, NEVER GIVE UP. GOD IS WITH YOU AT ALL TIMES. HE WILL NEVER LEAVE OR FORSAKE YOU. GOD LOVES YOU SO MUCH THAT HE GAVE HIS ONE AND ONLY BEGOTTEN SON TO DIE ON THE CROSS FOR YOUR SINS, MY SINS, THE SINS OF ALL MANKIND. HE LOVES US UNCONDITIONALLY,AND IS WITH US ALWAYS.

  9. Kay permalink

    THANK YOU LYNN…I am trying to be positive and to look forward to better days. Your friendship and the prayers of people i dont even know help me to realize there is good in this world. RICHARD …we must not give up. Sometime, someplace we will be happy. God will not leave us this way. It is a learning process…a long process and we have to learn patience. We will be better people at the end of it all. God will not leave us…no…He cannot and will not.

    • Kathy permalink

      To my friends, Kay and Lynn, and all the rest of you: I lost my job 14 months ago, and now my unemployment benefits have run out. I am single, have no income and no savings to fall back on. I am trying to find work. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I am not depressed, and I am not giving up! The Bible is full of promises to me, and God keeps His promises. “I know Whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able…” “My God shall supply ALL [my] need…”

      The Israelites had to be in a desert for awhile before they got to their promised land. God was preparing them, teaching them. I, too, have learned and grown closer to Him while I have been in this desert. I know God has a promised land for me! I would appreciate prayers for me to find good employment soon. I’m sure God doesn’t want me to be homeless and hungry. He will come through! I love Psalm 37:25, where David said, “I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread.”

      Kay, you are more of a blessing than you realize. Keep coming back to this blog. You, too, are in a desert right now, but our Father will not leave you there. The Promised Land is ahead! “Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!”

  10. Joyce permalink

    The hardest part for me is realizing I have brokenness. I have gone many years in the states you have described. I am a single mother with two energized kids. I have been on an emotional roller-coaster for at lest 10 years someday s being better then others. I felt I had to hold it together for the sake of the kids. After coming to God 2 years ago much has been revealed. But recently, I have been given words to soften up I dont need to be so hard anymore that season has passed. I don’t know what that means! I realized over the past few days that There is something going on inside me. The vail is being lifted and I see somethings that make me sad about myself. I want to enjoy life as I did when I was a young girl. I just dont know how to get there! There are so many battles that have to be fought. I need to continue to fight the battles but, not loose my joy while doing it.

  11. Diane permalink

    Lynn, I like you kinda fell out with God and for many years felt angry, not at Him as such, but those others who tried to instil their beliefs on me. I haven’t had the easiest life, but the one thing that keeps me ok is faith. Trusting in the Lord can help one come through all sorts of difficulties, we just have to allow Him in. In our hearts, our souls, our minds. Totally, completely and without reservation.
    My sister, God bless her, told me: when you lay your troubles, cares and concerns at God’s feet, you leave them there. You then carry on with that you need to do. Insisting on picking up that you have left defeats the object.

  12. AMEN!!!! I am a “backyard mechanic” amoung other things (“jack of all trades, master of none”). I can appreciate the need for fixing broken things. A broken and in need of repair heart is definately something I can relate to. Thank you for your words. I will remember to ask God to watch over and help me to repair my heart when it gets broken or in need of repair.

  13. Valerie permalink

    I’m deeply sorry to hear that you’ve been going through a painful trial in your life, Mark, but I can totally relate. I know exactly, unfortunately, what it feels like to have a crushed spirit…scarring of the heart…lost hope…disappointment, etc. in my case with my marriage relationship. Along with my prayers, others prayers to help soften my husband’s heart, turning to friends, family, & church friends, calling out to God, & so much more…I am finally, but slowly, seeing some positive hope. I can’t be sure it will last, but I have learned that I, with God leading me, can get through downfalls, pain, a hurting heart, & anything else that might come my way because I am strong-willed, have an intense, trusting love for our Lord, & know I am never alone! I am sure that God is leading you somewhere that you need to be to do his work, here on Earth, & that you will start healing soon…it may take time, but it will happen because of your strong faith & will. God Bless & never stop spreading HIS WORD!

  14. Marilyn permalink

    Mark, I pray for peace for your heart …
    sometimes I think we try to get ahead of God, and could miss what He may be trying to teach us.

  15. lLYNN permalink

    DIANE I WAS ANGRY AT GOD BECAUSE I DIDN’T REALIZE THE CONCEPT OF FREE WILL AND THOUGHT THAT GOD WOULD’VE STOPPED THE ABUSE I WAS ENDURING IF HE LOVED ME. I KNOW HE HAS NOW TAKEN MY LIFE AND TURNED IT AROUND FOR GOOD. GOD IS THE AIR THAT I BREATHE, HE IS EVERY BREATH I TAKE, AND I PRAY THAT WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE MY LIFE WILL GLORIFY HIM. I DO MY VERY BEST TO LIVE A LIFE THAT IS PLEASING TO GOD AND EACH DAY I ASK HIM TO LEAD ME ON THE PATH HE WOULD HAVE ME TAKE. I MADE GOD A PROMISE, THAT I WOULD CONTINUE TO FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, THAT I WILL NOT QUIT, I WILL NOT GIVE UP, AND I WILL ENCOURAGE OTHERS AND TELL THEM THERE IS HOPE AND HEALING IN THE NAME OF JESUS. I WILL NOT STOP TIL I HESR HIM SAY TO ME GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT,COME, ENTER INTO YOUR REST.

  16. Lyle Swearengin permalink

    Mark do you believe a human can have pure Soul? E-mail me please I have a story for you! Very Impotant

    • Jenna permalink

      well i’m sure we all would like to hear the story, can u post it here? I have been asking that same question for a while now. i know we are all sinners, but if we have a pure soul, why would we sin??

  17. Kay permalink

    KATHY…..you are unbelievable. You are still so positive in the situation you are in. You have so much trust in God I am sure He will not let you down. your words to me have always been good and caring….i wish i could be the same to you. You will be in my prayers Kathy. I too am out of work and live on a small allowance but that is another story, like my husband leaving me which has damaged me so much. But YOU Kathy you have kept on believing and you have kept positive. God bless you and keep in touch.

  18. tara permalink

    I need prayer for a job to take care of my four kids n nephew all?that i had has been taken from me and fathers only help so much which really isn’t enough all my life i’ve tried to help ppl and now um in the space that they were in um asking um begging god to send me financial breakthrough and?a job . i’m not a quiter but it seems all doors have been shut in my face. i’ve been go n through this for four?years and i really feel like giving up cause for?some reason my prayer’s never get answered i know it’s a god cause i’ve seen what he’s done for?others!!! am i praying wrong or have god just given up on me!!!!?????

  19. Lydia reyes permalink

    Sometimes when we go thru hard times as I read in alot of the comments here we tend to focus on our situation more than we focus on Jesus. God is bigger than all our problems and he knows the best way to get us thru, but some of us just keep dwelling on our troubles, pain and heartaches more than we focus on the Almighty, Awesome God that brought us to existance. It is not saying that we can’t feel sad or even go thru some crying times but it means that we should realize that no matter what we go thru, God feels our pain. He will never leave us, We are the ones that turn away from him. I speak this way because today I can look back at all the times that he has gotten me thru. I go to his word in psalms and always remember the wonderous deeds he has done and I give him thanks and praise. I pray that all who are going thru a rough time now, that God will give you his Peace as you wait on him.

  20. Johnk wambua permalink

    That massage real blessed me thanx and may di almighty GOD increase u abundantly!

  21. Richard Elmore permalink

    when? when does prayer change things? i have been praying every night and day, yet nothing!

    • jenna permalink

      God ALWAYS answers prayers. His answer is always yes, no, or not right now. if you feel like your prayers are not being answered, maybe right now is not the time. or maybe it doesn’t go with His will. make sure you are praying through the fruit of the spirit: love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faithfulness. and above all, in all prayers, make your requests to God, but more important than your requests, ask for His will to be done, and ask for peace of mind, knowing that we never know exactly what His plan is for us. it sounds like life is rough for you right now, but it makes me smile to see that you are HERE looking for help! Good job!! =) dont give up on God!! keep praying, keep seeking other Christians for advice. i get irritated sometimes too when i feel like my prayers are not being answered, but most of the time, i can look back and thank God for NOT answering those prayers, lol. He gives us our NEEDS, not our greeds =) i actually got a book from a friend not too long ago, about how to have a good prayer life… he wanted the book back, so i took notes, and basically copied the book for myself. it has really helped a lot. i could email to you if you like.

  22. Richard Elmore permalink

    please!

  23. Kay permalink

    Jenna could you e mail it to me too please. My e mail is kay52@onvol.net

  24. Ruth permalink

    Please send me the notesonprayer as well – ThanksandGod Bless you all!!! raokdo@hotmail.com

  25. september permalink

    if i backslided.. now i m hurting.. i pray.. i ask God to help me.. heal me.. will he still hear me? would he have given up on me? i told Him so many times i will go back to church.. but i din.. right now when i m in deep pain den i come running back to Him.. will he still care?

  26. Jenna permalink

    september, i struggle with this too. i always seem to run to Him when my life is down in the dumps. and i feel bad because i need to run to Him for everything, good or bad, big or small. but the answer to your question is YES!!! of course he still cares. and He is still loving you and guiding you and forgiving you and….. His awesomeness doesnt run dry, His love never runs dry. many times when i felt this way, i came across the verse “He is strong in weakness” it wasnt until recently that i really understood that. When we are weak and in despair and go running to God (regardless of the last time we prayed- days or months or even years) He will be right there every time we call Him, every time we need Him, He is right there. You are in my prayers. God bless =)

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