Taking a good hard look at myself
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up. James 4:7-10
This morning I received an honest and rather blunt email from a friend I value greatly, in it they shared that something I had written (not on this blog) was arrogant and offensive. My first reaction was actually to smile at this amazing friend, who has a really wonderful gift of telling me how things really are, and through this pointing me towards God. Actually my friend is a prophet, she speaks the painful truth and in turn points me to God.
And my prophetic friend is right, I had been rather naïve and somewhat arrogant, and yes I unfortunately have a tendency towards arrogance. With her stinging rebuke ringing in my ears I took off for a walk through the bush, taking some time to chat with God. While I walked, James 4:10 came to mind: Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up. I headed for my caravan office (see photo below!) determined to come to grips with this amazing passage.
The key message for me is the importance of humbling myself, which in the greek literally means to bring low, that is, to realise who I really am, to notice my many shortfalls, to strip back the exaggerations and face the bare facts about me. And when I face the cold reality I realise how much I need God.
I need to submit myself to God, to come under the influence of God in every aspect of my life. And this happens through honestly facing my shortfalls, such as my arrogance.
My arrogance comes from a deep seated need to please my father, it is completely illogical as sometimes these things are (my dad is very proud of me and we love each other very much). And this manifests in seeking the approval of others, and I do this by showing off.
So today I wash my hands and purify my heart: I take the decision to reform, to abstain from needing approval from others. I realise that my strength comes from the one who created me, my assurance from the one who will lift me up.
I cannot be double-minded and seek approval from the world and from God, I choose God.
I praise God for this challenge and for my prophetic friend!
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Yahweh’s Yarn in a Year : 1 year Bible reading plan
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This is me in front of my new office for my company Global Scope Media, and where I spend time in the Word and studying – yes a caravan! Love it!