Carefully Watching Me.
Mark 14:32-38 32 They went to the olive grove called Gethsemane, and Jesus said, “Sit here while I go and pray.” 33 He took Peter, James, and John with him, and he became deeply troubled and distressed. 34 He told them, “My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.” 35 He went on a little farther and fell to the ground. He prayed that, if it were possible, the awful hour awaiting him might pass him by. 36 “Abba, Father,” he cried out, “everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” 37 Then he returned and found the disciples asleep. He said to Peter, “Simon, are you asleep? Couldn’t you watch with me even one hour? 38 Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak.”(NLT)
We are back in Western Australia after 6 amazing years in New Zealand. What will I miss about New Zealand? Easily my friends, and a close second, the countries love of that great game: rugby union. What I won’t miss is the earthquakes and the weather.. Wellington does windy really well.
Speaking of being blown about, I am just in awe of this reading, stunned into reflection. It walks up to me, taps me on the shoulder, and tells me what I am doing wrong. Good.
I want to change, I want to become more of what God wants me to be, more of what He created me to be. And one part I really need to change is to live more in God’s will, as Christ states in v.36: ‘Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.”
Right now I am exploring my future, working on my doctorate, doing some consulting with my newly formed company, Global Scope Media, and asking, God what next? Sure I have desires and dreams but are they what God wants of me? Am I really prepared to take a role, to get involved in something that God is calling me to even if I really don’t think it is me. It sounds obvious, like yes of course I will do what God is calling me to.. BUT sometimes my desire, my plans are very, very compelling. And this causes me to struggle. There is what I want and then there is what God wants.
Verse 38 reads: Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak.” I totally get this. My body, my very human thoughts can be very weak, desiring possessions, certain situations to happen, and in the midst of this, yes I totally want to do God’s will, the spirit is willing in me. So how do I reduce the influence of my human desire?
I keep watch and pray. And the word watch is stunning, it means to be attentive, vigilant, to be awake. I have a one year old who in the past week has started walking which changes things completely. My wife and I need to be aware of him all the time, to know where he is, making sure he is safe. We are careful, protective parents who want our baby to flourish and grow. In the same way God is telling me today that I need to give the same sort of careful, protective attention to how I live my life; to make sure I don’t give into temptation. I need to be thoughtful, always asking, ‘is this the right thing to do?’ Just as I need to constantly be thoughtful about my boys safety, so to I need to be constant and vigilant about how I conduct myself. This is not an easy road and my desires are very strong at times, but it is a journey I am completely committed to.
And as James 1:12 reads: “God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.”
I praise you God for your Word!
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